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been sitting here all day
staring at the screen
can't see what's around
what surrounds
me
can't feel who I am right now
not present

when future comes
i'll think about the past
how -unpresent- I was
mind goes on a loop
thoughts are everywhere
– hello?
– still not here.

been standing here all my life
looking forward to what was coming
and so it did
it came
I'm still looking forward to it.